I wear my scars like a badge of honour; a testament to the strength, courage and determination I had to find to become the person I am today. Because it was out of my brokenness, my tears, pain and trauma, I realised how strong my spirit really was.
It is hard to know where to start with a story like mine. Over a three year period, life unrelentingly threw me challenge after challenge. I took my eighty-day old baby boy’s life in an unsafe bed sharing accident. My nana died. I fell pregnant with twins and lost one. I found out my dad had cancer. I got married. My pop died. By the time I was 7 months pregnant, I was so overwhelmed I had a breakdown, resulting in my husband leaving me. Shortly after, my father died and Chance was born.
But things continued to challenge me. Chance had colic and cried for 6 hours a day and I survived on 3 hours broken sleep. Being so run down, I contracted glandular fever and had to crawl on my hands and knees to tend to my boys. I developed a terrible fear that Chance would die and I was diagnosed with depression, PTSD and anxiety. I couldn’t escape the nightmare inside my head. It wasn’t until I seriously considered taking my own life, that I had my awakening. At my weakest, lowest moment, I suddenly remembered who I was and what my soul purpose was.
With this realisation, I began to transform my life and began the long road of healing. I turned to acupuncture, crystals, guided meditation, nature, exercise and nutrition. I lost 22 kilos, healed the bulging discs in my back that had required daily morphine and overcame my PTSD and anxiety. I took the time to ask myself the hard questions in life…who am I and who do I want to be.
I now spend my time mentoring others who are suffering or struggling. I live to be an example to others and to show what is possible for them, even with a mental illness. My life is now filled with creating beautiful healing crystal jewellery and oils, presenting on radio, hosting charity events, modelling, inspirational speaking, writing and most importantly raising my two beautiful boys by myself.
I hope my strength, courage and determination will inspire others to never give up hope no matter what life throws at you because there is always an answer to be found.